I’ve been battling Epilepsy since age 19. At first I caught myself waking up in the middle of the night with a shirt drenched in sweat, next I caught myself hearing thousands of “Jessica” that I just couldn’t answer too. At that moment it was like anything triggered it, I cried, I seized, I stressed, I seized. It had gotten so bad that along with cutting some of the things in my personal life away, I cut my hair hoping for it all to just be gone you know? How do you just turn 19 and start taking so many pills a day with no explanation? I was a typical teenager, if you know, you know.
After numerous doctors visits, medicine switches, and still trying to get my life together in the process, I had to find a back up plan. Minor set backs for major comebacks. You’re not supposed to tell your every move, and because I felt as though my condition would soon take a toll on others life as well, I had easily started working into how to better myself, how to take care of myself for myself by myself. Standing in front of a court as an African-American is hard, even for the smallest things. I was found legally disabled, which was a part of the plan. Had I not been able to “Work”, I needed another source of income. Now let me explain, I’m NEVER incapable of anything, but I can NEVER depend on nobody. I will walk around with a dollar before I ask for anything. Legal assistance, insurance, I got all on my own. That was my start. I had no idea what I was getting myself into as an Epileptic patient, but I can tell you the medications started me off as a whole child mentality. I didn’t have the urge to do much, the care to get up, it was part of my depression until I realized a lot of the things I was going through, so was somebody else.
Man I went from a normal life, parties, fireworks, to not being able to be out long due to my medical issues. The medicine was something I had to get used to, once I was able to maintain it, I was no longer holding myself from anything. Jessica is no longer Jessica, she has became Literaturebyjessc if you know, you know. I do everything with the intent of making things better, not only for myself, but for others. Now my Journey this month has been REAL! I remember asking did I miss thanksgiving, and from there it was like “Jessica you are going to be okay,”. Imagine hearing your mom call your name, and you can’t do anything about it. No parent should have to see their child in that form, and I pray for my strength and everyone else’s. I’ve learned how to cope with and live with my condition on my own to a certain extent. I’ve learned my auras, I’ve engaged in conversations that have helped me understand how other’s react to and handle their conditions. I’ve had link ups with people who take similar medication such as Khalil, zoom meetings with Angels Of Epilepsy, and even explaining to others around me what Epilepsy is and how to handle it. You are not alone.
For those of you who don’t know in my words, Epilepsy is a neurological disorder where nerve cells are disturbed. In my case, my heart and mind do not connect. My mind can be telling my heart one thing, and my heart does the opposite or vice versa. I have refractory epilepsy with all sorts of seizures ( grand mal, tonic, and clonic ) , and have been managing it pretty well. I decided that just because I am epileptic, and legally disabled, that should not be stopping me from being great. I began doing poetry and stories, and someone seen better than that in me. I became llc’ed, notarized, and finally was able to put my name on an actual desk as “Literaturebyjessc” in part ownership with Madmax, Lit, and RIP Boards. Who said I couldn’t be anything? Mission accomplished, assignment understood. Stay tuned for my seizure tutorial.
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