I’ve made many mistakes!

Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.

I’m not perfect, I’m human. We make mistakes, but we live and learn. As I’ve stated before, you can never have too much knowledge of something. One thing I hope people say about me, is I never forget about them. I always pray for people more than myself, I worry about people more than myself. Though it may not always be publicly seen or heard, it’s true. But there comes a point in time when you have to focus on yourself and love from a distance. If you don’t you carry on those burdens trying to help everyone else, which you can’t always save the world. If I’m going through things, how can I help you? How can I be there for you when my plate is full? Did I ask for my plate to be full? No, but I knew I needed to eat somehow. I knew I needed to accomplish things of my own.

It sounds selfish, but we all should think like that when it comes to certain things. Mental health is a real illness. If I were to go out and place my problems on people who are already going through enough, how could they help me in any way? I feel like I’m piling my issues upon them when it’s not their fault that I’m in this predicament. Life happens, and it happens to be bad sometimes before it gets good. God closes certain doors for a reason because better doors are opening. Sometimes it may include pain, but God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. I want people to remember me as the one who never gave up, on anyone or anything, no matter what the cause was. It’s just we can’t always accommodate our lives to fit other people’s needs. And I know they say you make time for who and what you want, but when you have trials and tribulations, how could you? I’ve been missing for some time, and I feel like I let some of you down with blogs, networking, and even friends and family. But I had to do what was best for us all, which was for me to rest and handle my issues before jumping back up and trying to save the world. I want people to remember that I love them more than they’ll ever know even if I’ve missed important dates and events, it wasn’t on accident, it was because I had to get myself together in order for me to be there for them the way I should be.

• Literaturebyjessc (Jessica Hunter)