Depression

Depression has always been there , it’s more of a characteristic trait than a mental illness. Every since I can remember I’ve always felt a heavy feeling something heavy was on the chest but at nine years old how do you explain that? I’ve been fighting a battle that I know I will one day, will lose. I’ve tried everything from therapy to inpatient therapy , I feel like depression and I are one in the same. I wake up with it , I go to sleep with it. I wish I was normal I wish the things that happened to me never did but if I keep dwelling on it how is it supposed to leave. Depression is everywhere even when I’m laughing it stays in the back of my mind like it’s on a timer to be released. Staying strong is getting harder to maintain, the facade is…