The best decision that I could have ever made was to let go, and let God. I had to understand that I can’t fix and save everything, and everyone. It’s crazy how life will teach you lessons, as I’ve always said that I was just placed on this earth to help, whether it be a person, a family, or the community. I’ve never went out looking for anything in return, or anything contributing to my own happiness, it was always about everyone else and their needs. No matter how hard anything was, I never let anything get in the way of my emotions.
I had to realize that everyone doesn’t have the same mentality as me. Meaning, the way I see things, everyone else doesn’t see it the same. For example, I may make mistakes, but I know tomorrow is never promised. So instead of holding on to my emotions, I let go, and let God. At the end of the day, only he has the last word and can judge, I am not one to do so. Yes, there has been a lot of things done to me or said about me, but I also realized every action doesn’t deserve a reaction. Sometimes you have to allow people to see that flower that they didn’t think would flourish, to blossom into the strongest and prettiest flower. When that happens, emotions and vibes change towards you or any situation. Once someone knows they can’t bother you, it either makes them either proud of you, or the other way around, either way “Let go, and let God,”.
I’ve also made the decision to learn and do things on my own despite my disability. Just because I am disabled doesn’t make me incapable. I took that same mentality and went along and continued my future by graduating college, not just with one degree, but two. Anything is possible, sometimes you are the force behind somebody’s wind without even knowing it. Writing was always my way of expression to just let it out whether I felt understood or not, it was always easier to just express without expecting a response. Then it turned into just more than that, it turned into an LLC’ed business and name brand for myself that I will forever live by. This is who I am, this is what I do it for. So I let go of feeling or thinking that I am disabled as it comes with somethings that are hard to deal with, but I LET GOD.
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