Mentally, I’ve grown. I’ll sit back and overthink the next step, which was one of my biggest problems. You have to just let things flow, but that comes from living in survival mode since a child. I am realizing I no longer have to exist, I can live. I can do things without worry, especially if I can do it with a disability. One thing one of my brothers stated is not focusing on the outcomes of risks, but taking them because either way it’s either a lesson or a blessing.
I’ve grown to understand that not everyone has the same mentality as you. Not that it is a bad thing, but if you aren’t on the same accord with someone, it’s okay. How you choose to go about it is on you. I have a heart of gold, so when it comes to family, work, relationships, etc, I’m always trying to mend those things or bring it to an okay, and I’m learning that sometimes those fall-outs, break-ups, disagreements, what have you, had to happen in order for you to wake up and realize certain things within yourself. I have people who look up to me, not just kids, so I always try to lead by example, to show how something should be done, especially professionally. I’m well known for being open to anything that not only helps myself, but helps the next person become successful. Now, they say you can’t help everyone, or “You can lead the horse to the water, but you can’t make them drink it,”. This is very much true, but due to the standards of Literaturebyjessc, I just always seem to have to be a part of that help, and though it may weigh on my shoulders, I’d rather go take that risk because someway, somehow, whether the person becomes successful or not, they will have a reason to remember Literaturebyjessc, not just Jessica.
I’ve also grown mentally by being able to realize that I am more capable of things than I thought. I can do things alone and not need help, meaning I can manage a lot of things to get done whether it be in house, or within my business. I’ve realized that trials and tribulations are out in your way for a reason, weapons may form but they shall not prosper. Having a disability is hard, but knowing that I can surpass that thought finally puts me at ease. I have finally focused on the things that I need while still handling the needs of those depending on me, and as a woman it can be hard, but it’s the best feeling in the world. See its easy or a woman to multi-task and still come out with a smile, though she may be tired, drained, and aching, she still pushes, prays, and keeps it all together. I’ve even learned how to divide my time between necessities and priorities. For example, all bills are always paid before I make my next move. The biggest flex, is that even when I’m not thinking of myself, yet thinking of others, I am still able to do it all. Now, it makes me happy, because I’ve finally grown mentally. Sometimes it takes those few friends who have similar mindsets, or know what you are truly capable of, in order for you to wake up and realize. I am a magazine writer featured in atleast 3 magazines, referenced to in wikipedia, and hold two degrees, ask google. I surpassed people who were in this exact position before me, and that’s what amazes me the most. Keep being great!
- Literaturebyjessc (Jessica Hunter)
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